Every year around March I start to feel depressed. It's really annoying. I think I do believe in seasonal whatever disorder because I'm pretty sure I have it. I guess it's the fact that I'm an end-of-the-year type of girl (I love fall/winter/CHRISTMAS) coupled with the feeling of impending doom and THE-END-IS-NEAR-ness weighing heavily on my chest. Plus there's the teeny little issue of how completely not over Viktor Krum I am.
I know. I KNOW. It's ridiculous. My acceptable period of sympathy is nearly over. We were together for less than two months. But I can't shake it, guys. Not even a little. And I'm usually pretty good at letting people go. So why am I having so much trouble being heartless right now?
Here's where you're going to start hating me. It's not like I couldn't replace him if I wanted to. In fact, I have not one but TWO members of the male species currently pursuing me. One is a really good friend, and the other is a nice guy who's not an acquaintance but not quite a friend. I went out with both of them last week (not simultaneously, of course), and I had a really good time on both dates. But I haven't spoken to either of them since. They've both been calling (Yes, actually CALLING - not just texting), but I keep sending them to voicemail. I feel like a completely ass. I would be lucky to date either of these awesome guys. But I ignore their calls because I just don't feel like explaining that I really, REALLY can't do this right now so please don't expect anything from me.
This is just my luck, isn't it? I went to this school for 4.5 years without anyone wanting to date me. And now, in my very last semester, it's like everyone wants to. Where were you guys when I wasn't completely emotionally unavailable? And why are none of you Asian? That would help me a lot.
(I have a thing for Asian guys. I don't know why.)
So yeah. Any advice, kids?
In other news, I jogged an entire mile today without stopping!!!! I had never done that before, but I was determined to run a mile before I graduate in May. (Btw, did I mention that I like to run now? I do. I have no idea how this happened.) I'd been having trouble getting past half a mile, so I wasn't sure I was going to make it. But somehow I knew today was the day. I guess that's what happens when you're full of anger and resentment! I had to get it out somehow. Silver linings ftw?
I should be in bed. I'll talk to you all again soon, I hope.